The Wedding Toast I never Gave

Dear Martha

Sorry my toast at your wedding sucked. Um... I was feeling all emotional and I really didn't wanna get up there and  pull a sarah-tapley. (agreed?) Plus, nerves and such.  It comes down to this- I didn't wanna cry in front of people. Which has been a solid Anna personality trait for the last 23 1/2 years (the 1st 18 months of my life, I didn't mind crying in front of anyone! go figure!) and is not going anywhere. :P

With the day behind me and the computer screen as a buffer, I can tell you what was on my mind that day. I wanted to say, while I am no expert on love or what it takes to make a marriage work, I do consider myself an expert on one (formerly) Miss Martha Fanjoy. I wanted to talk about all the growing up and things we've gone through together and how happy I am with how close we've become. I was gonna say how much I love you and look up to you and how supportive you have always been of me and how Terry has jumped right in and has been supportive too. And how much I appreciate that. I wanted to talk about you and Terry and how wonderful it is- the way you have come together. I was gonna say how apt the reading from Captain Corelli's Mandolin was, since I really feel Terry and you have a love that has passed the stage of "temporary madness" and your "roots have grown towards each underground" over the last few years. I wanted to talk about meeting Terry and how he had no trouble winning the family over, because we could all see, in the way he looks at you and how he treats you, that he really (and I mean REALLY) loves you. You have a 'glow' about you that was absent before and I can tell that Terry makes you feel really great about yourself. Finally, I was gonna throw in a joke about how Terry already felt like one of the family cause I can tease and tease him, while he sputters, looking for a comeback! (just like Jim!) 

Love you very much Mar -best sister eva- and Congrats! 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox